3 months ago I was at the trip with my best friend. We had a lot of fun, seen a lot of places, met nice people. There was one guy... Well, it wasn't like big thing, we're from different cities on the very different parts of country. But after I came back, for some time I was tasting the memories and thoughts what would happen if I moved to his place. Would I find him accidentally? It's rather a big city. Or not?
The thought devoured me. Me being in the other city, with other job. Imagination went wild.
After some time it lost some colours, but damage in brain was irreparable. Friend from capital city asked me to apply to their team. "Why not?" I thought.
And here I am - after first interview, with some plans, after fight with grandmother and convincing her by my beloved mother. Preparing slowly.
And somehow, somewhere in my mind, there's this - if it weren't for that short holiday romance (wow, big word), I wouldn't be mentally prepared and past most fears of making big change.
Fate is such a funny thing.
- I'm in...:in the middle of Malazan adventure
- My feelings...: restless
- Ongaku...:KAT-TUN - 14. White X'mas (Album Version)
Another year passed, huh? Well, sounds not so bad after all. Who made resolutions? Who is crying over "how bad was last year"?
Well, not like I care :P Past is past after all, I only want to remember what is valuable.
So, what I managed?
1. JLPT N4 passed! With crazy trip to capital city :D But who cares, after passing it I got some energy to go further.
2. Got permanent job contract! With not so bad salary, health care and fitness plan. More, I managed to talk my manager to give me back my old position, where I did much better, with less stress and nicer co-worker. Smooth.
3. Finished 101 dramas! YAY~!
I think that would be the most important. Of course, there was some not funny things, but it's over, right?
So, what to do next?
1. Move out - preferably from country. I need some other space and here is too stuffy for me.
2. Pass JLPT N3 - told ya, I got motivated to go further.
Anything more to that and I'm gonna be really happy :D Who joins to me?
( If you are curious what my 101 dramas were... ;)Collapse )
- My feelings...: contemplative
- Ongaku...:KAT-TUN - Fire and Ice
The bigger distance, the better.
Should I do something with this? Like... I don't know...
From time to time I imagine I go that country, I meet that person and...
I'm afraid to let my dreams go further.
Do you hate me now? May I hate myself for this? Will you ever read this?
And tomorrow I will wake up, go to work, try not to lost all my mind in this hectic place.
I have no idea who is more attached.
Or maybe it's my punishment.
- I'm in...:personal hell
- My feelings...: confused
- Ongaku...:Tatu - All about us
I haven't posted anything here for a long, lomg time... Probably now I have too much time to spare ;) Nonetheless I need to write, anything is good.
Right now I'm sitting on my balcony, enjoying nice weather, parents' absence and nice Akame fic. Really, what is needed to feel happy?
I have some problems is work and it affected my health. I'm afraid to go there tomorrow... Like it would change anything. Sometimes I think that I'm the problem, because no way everybody around me have so much flaws it makes me feel bad. But, who knows? Maybe it's something between? Their flaws against mine, that would create such a mess...
Two weeks more and I should have a whole week off. Whole week without teammates. Sounds really, really good. And that tsuchi8562 will spend some of that time with me.
Maybe the fact, that I have 2 extractions planned this minth makes it less funny, but I need this, srsly, otherwise every month my lovely teeth will make a walking bunch of pain...
No more rambling today!
My last list was made by me year ago and I don't know how to feel with 18 more than last time. I mean - it should be much more, right? I was unemployed for 3 months, I was watching like crazy. But the thing is, that after coming back from work I don't feel like watching. Strange, but real. Well, still I think it's good for me (and my Japanese). But 18 means 1,5 drama for a month and that is something ;) So not that bad.
Ok, so let's see my whole list of completed dramas:
( The list of crazinessCollapse )
- My feelings...: contemplative
- Ongaku...:KAT-TUN - Connect&Go
( let me explain by txt+gifs ;)Collapse )
- I'm in...:married with bed ;)
- My feelings...: blah
- Ongaku...:Tanaka Koki - Parasite
But I have to tell, that some of them I watched more than once. I tried to count every time I watched all drama and when it's more than 1 season to count it as well and... Do you know that it's equal to watching 75 dramas? A lot, don't you think? And all of this in a bit more than 2 years.
Let's proceed to the list:
( Like anybody"s interested...Collapse )
So, that's for now. I watch another 6, so the amount will be bigger soon. I'm over watch-block (which means no power to decide, download and launch anything), so it's realy good for me and my Japanese ;)
Don't ask me for describing it more, I'm unable to do it, because all of it are special, well, maybe some were rather boring, but some were pretty good... I should make a list for rewatching ;)
- My feelings...: crappy
- Ongaku...:GACKT - Love Letter
- My feelings...: sleepy
- Ongaku...:Kamenashi Kazuya - Sweet
( You really don"t have to read it, but I had to write it. Deal with it.Collapse )
- I'm in...:in my own chamber of pain
- My feelings...: predatory
- Ongaku...:L'arc en Ciel - XXX
You write fic, right? You make it f-locked, right? You accept invitations and let people read your creations. It sounds right.
But leaving LJ WITHOUT unlocking fics I find not kind. So you have to wander, ask people to copy it and send you (I know, I help with that too). What for?
Yes, I am frustrated finding some of my favourite fics f-locked and with no way to be friended. You can imagine.
That's why I make a copy of almost everything. Because it is frustrating.
December is my official "Save Fics on Your Hard Disk" month.
Because I still don't get it.
- I'm in...:bed, bed, bed!
- My feelings...: frustrated
- Ongaku...:KAT-TUN - Baby B Mine